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I'm totally listening to that song right now! Booyah! I'm not going to even say anything about how long it has been AGAIN since I wrote, cause I said that in the last one. I am sorry though. I know people want updates and stuff, but I kind of forgot about my blog all together. I changed my banner AGAIN, but I don't like it so I'm thinking of just putting up a picture... yeah. I'll do that when I'm done with this blog. :)

So, I'm thinking I want to go to the Tim McGraw concert! I wonder if anyone loves me enough to buy tickets. ;) Haha just kidding... I honestly have no idea what to talk about. I could go on and on about what has happened since I wrote last, but I did that in the last blog and that's annoying, plus it's midnight and my brain is currently in the off mode. :)

My new short wig.

I know that everyone pretty much knows that I got a short wig, because I'm assuming that most of the people reading are friends with me on Facebook anyways.

I'm going into Dr. Scott's tomorrow to talk about the surgery. I'm kind of nervous about the surgery? I can't decide if I am or not... I don't know.
This is my newest addition:

Feeding tube; Yuck!

Excuse my ugliness, and the weird face I'm pulling. I was NOT happy about the feeding tube. It was kind of dramatic putting it in... The night before I just sat in my bed and cried for a long time but then my favorite tech Tommy walked in, sat on the floor, put his hand on my leg and talked to me and my mom about it for a while. That calmed me down a lot. I love all the nurses and tech's there. They are all SO nice to me. I'm so lucky! I made a ton of new friends and they're all nurses. I guess that there is a nurse named Irish and on Halloween he dresses up as Dorothy, dress and all (hairy legs,no tights or anything, P.S.) and brings his dog as Todo... I'm looking forward to that... :) "Kind of disturbing" says most of the nurses there, but I am excited lol. :)

The puppies are getting SO big! I don't have current pictures of them. I'll have to take some and upload some soon! I think that I am keeping the black girl instead of the little boy. She is SO cute! But so is he... ugh. They're all cute! I would keep them ALL if I could. :/ Buuuuut, my mom put the kabosh on that idea. Bah-humbug!

Alright well, I should probably go to bed since it is almost 12:30.

I'll post as soon as I can, and try to start writing more. I love you guys. <333

Goodnight,

A lot has happened...

Hey. I'm sorry I haven't blogged in a way long time. I guess I kind of forgot about it. Plus I never felt like it. /:
A lot has happened since I last wrote. I finished round 4 of my chemo last week. Cis Platin and Doxirubussin(?) kick my butt... I got way sick when I was in the hospital. I was drugged the entire time so I don't remember a lot. I do remember them giving me Benadryl. Um... bad idea. I get jumpy legs and my body just feels out of place. I feel like I'm not even in my body? And my hands shake and I just feel like i'm having a seizure or something. It really scares me. I don't care how sick I get I'm never having that again.
For my 3rd round of chemo I got to come home to 4 little suprises. :)
Lilly had her puppies. They are adorable. 3 girls and 1 boy. I'm pretty sure all of them are sold though. I think I'm keeping the boy. I really want to keep one. He's cute. He's laying on my chest right now actually and he's making cute little squeaky noises. :)

Little Lucy thought she was the mommy. :)

Miss Babysitter Lucy Girl :)

They always cuddle like this. :)

The cute little boy. He has the cutest face!

Hehe :) The litle boy.

Here are some pictures of the puppies that I took today.

Girl #1

Girl #2 :)

My little guy :)

Girl #3 :)

Momma Lilly :)

On Saturday I went to Murray with the Murray family (my best friend) and we went to Fashion Place Mall and shopped all day and then we stayed in a hotel that night.Me and Haley even got our own room! :) It was super fun and it was nice to get out of the house and not just sit there all day. Me and Haley got matching dresses and we both bought swimsuits and sunglasses. We went to Chili's afterwards. I love their chips and salsa! I ordered chicken crispers with fries and a side of mashed potatoes, lol. I ate maybe 2 fries and all of my mashed potatoes, but I didn't even touch the chicken crispers. My tongue and throat were hurting and I didn't think I could eat them cause they were crunchy... But I had strawberry lemonade and that was really yummy. We sat by the bar and there were super wasted guys hitting on the girls sitting at the table next to us. It was kind of funny to watch them... I don't know why you would want to be drunk. Stupid. But I had so much fun! I love the Murray's. They are my 2nd family.

drivin home.

hotel room. :P

My stunnah shades ;P

New Necklace :)

Hay an her stunnah shades ;)

Don't have anything else to say really. I dont have chemo until the day after Easter. :) And Abbie and Rory come home the 21st for GOOD!!! Finalllyyyyyy :) I've missed them so much. And they can make me some of  Rory's yummy Cambodian recipes ;)
Well I'll try and not take so long to write again.
Byeeeeee<333

I Got Gadgets and Gizmos a Plenty!

hey everyone. this blog is gonna be short but im on my new KINDLE. How awesome is that??? Pretty awesome if i do say so myself (:
I got it from my cousin Teri that lives in Colorado. She also sent me a Nintendo DSi. Which i think is awesome! It even has a camera. (:
Annnnnnd another thing. Remember that video camera i was talking about? Well my beehive leader Nikki George got me one!
Thanks everyone!!! I love you.
My mom thinks im spoiled. What do you think? (:

"Have You Blogged Yet?"

My mom keeps asking if I've updated. My answer is usually "No but I'll do it later." HA.
Later. That's an understatement. :)
Sorry for the delay, yet again. I know some of you want to know everything that has been going on but I never feel like blogging about it.

I'm in the hospital yet again, for my 2nd round of chemo. I get to go home tomorrow! Yay! :)
This chemo is called Methotrexate ? and it's SO much better than the Doxirubisin and cis Platin (I have no idea how to spell those). I still got kind of nauseas but I actually threw up instead of holding it all in. That was the most miserable part of the D & cP chemo. NAUSEA. And I COULDN'T throw up. It was horrible.
But the Metho. was good. Which is good. :)
I have to come back in again on Thursday for my 3rd round, the same M chemo. I'm gonna have to invest in some hobby to do while I'm in the hospital. It gets kind of boring. Time flies by fast when I'm asleep which is usually what I do while I'm here.

Yesterday was a really good day for me. I took a little nap and one of my favorite nurses Monica came in and said "Maddie. There's a boy here to see you." I immediately shot up and was like "What? A boy? Oh shoot. I look like crap." So my mom told Monica to give me a minute to wake up. What boy could be coming to see me? None other than my BEST friend Josh Barber. I was so nervous. I told my mom "Is he really here? I'm really nervous mom. What do I say?"
Apparently Josh was as nervous as I was. It wasn't even that bad. Him and his mom had put together a bag of stuff for me, filled with books, bubbles, play dough and a Veggie Tales coloring book. :) It was so nice.
Josh would occasionally catch my eye and we'd both smile. He is the greatest friend I've ever had.

Isn't he the cutest? :)
My parents were so embarrassing. And Josh was embarrassed by his mom. But that's what parents are for right? To embarrass us? :)
I love Josh. And his mom is so nice. She wrote about me in one of her blog posts. Me and my mom read it and just cried. It was really sweet. I'm glad I have such great people in my life. I'm blessed to have Josh as my best friend and I'll always be greatful for him, and for his mom.
When they left my mom said
"You should marry him." Haha. Awkward?

I walked around the hospital for a bit today. It felt good to get out of my room. It gets clostrophobic sometimes in there. I was in my room on my laptop writing stuff while my mom got in the shower and Monica walked in to take my vitals and she was said "What are you doing? Homework?"
I hesitated. "No... I'm uh, writing a story." Haha. Don't know why but i've felt very author-ish lately. So far I have 3 chapters in my "book". :P
I decided that I want to get a "Flip". It's like a mini video camera. There is a show 'Good Luck Charlie' on Disney Channel. It's about a teenager who like films her little sister Charlie's life so that she can watch it when she's older. You know how you never really remember very much from your childhood? I'm kind of wanting to do that for Lindsay's baby. She's having a girl. :) They're pretty set on the name Olivia. I. LOVE. IT. I'm going to call her Livi. I can't wait until she's born. She's going to be adorable.
We're in this "private room" right now watching Rory's game. I'm gonna go now. I'll try and blog again soon. (:
G'night errryybody! <3

Somebody To Love

Justin Drew Bieber. <3 He's just adorable. Love his music <3

Matthew McConaughey. He's just beautiful. <3

Logan Henderson<3 He has the cutest smile! From Big Time Rush.

Taylor Lautner. He's just hot. And has a hot body... Hahah. :)

Paul Wesley<3 From Vampire Diaries; He's just mysterious looking :) Love it.



There's so many other hot guys. But I think these are my top...5?

I'm in a good mood today. I guess. :)

I'm sick of being home. I wish I could go to school. If my blood counts are high then I might be able to go tomorrow.. Who knows? I hope I can go soon. I miss my friends a lot. It's really hard not seeing them everyday.

Sitting at home all the time gets old... /:

Alright well... I think I'm gonna go now.

Peace.Love.Happiness.

Internet

hey guys(: its me. I just got the internet yesterday on my phone and i am SO excited! I can blog from my phone now, like when im in the hospital and stuff. Which is pretty cool. So this is my first mobile post! Sorry its gonna be short and just kind of pointless but you'll just have to deal with it. :) Today i am going to be at one of my young womens leaders house because she's styling my hair and i think my makeup too... then we're going to her friends house in Kaysville to do a photoshoot thing,sorta, for my leader, Jenny's website. :) I think all the young women are doing it but i get to be first. ;) Im excited! But not sure what to wear. hmmm... (: Well i think im gonna watch Aladdin on my laptop. Talk to y'all later! < 3